Tuesday, June 19, 2012


I am feeling a little lost at the moment - not completly unusual for me but i am seriously at a loss at to what to do next. One month ago I was told that the company i had been working was not going to renew my contract, two weeks later a friend asked me to join her in getting people to come to her networking event, we dont have enought people for Thursdays event and so it was decided today that we are postponing the event to July which in a nutshell i will not be getting a salary this month. This is an extreme problem!!! Obviously....
My clutch also finally gave in on Saturday morning so my car does not really drive very well, and I should not drive it anyway.
I still need to pay for angel boys therapy session which is over R1000 but i have not yet thinking i was going to make some money this month.
In other words its a serious problem
When I was told the contract was not going to be renewed I was depressed becouse its the first time ever that I have been let go from anywere - it sucks to not be good enough!!
And now I have no choice but to find another job and I need to get a job starting 1 July - practically unheard of!
Please put your prayers out there for me - thats all I ask I know all things happen for a reason but I dont want to be the reason on the we lose anything like the last time we almost lost everything.

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

June 2012

After five weeks of headaches and pain I finally went to the doctor. He has told me I need to go to physio therapy and given me a script for an anti depressant.

As many of you who have been reading here for a while will know that I suffer from temparel lobe epilepsy and depression.

To be honest I had no idea I was feeling depressed. With that said I have been crying non stop for the last three years and the pain, irritation and anger I have been feeling for several months - its possible that this makes sense.

I have taken the pills - pain killers etc so I am really really sleepy - fiiiinally, now I just have to hope the sicky/non sleeper children dont wake me up to night!!