Keep on keeping on...

So I finally comandeered the husbands laptop - my previous semi cryptic not completly explained in full post was written on my Blackberry which for some reason does not allow me to scroll down so Im limited to a teeny tiny couple of paragraphs...

Anyhoo - it took the insurance/builders to build my mothers house again in only 6 weeks from start to finish, they have moved in and are currenly looking at getting a few things to finish of the house - for instance additional shelving tv cabinets etc.
They were blessed with new clothes beds, fridges and pretty much all necesseties but obviously there was a whole lot of stuff that wasnt replaced and cant be replaced...we go through the motions of not remembering these things or to try not to talk about it too much, it is a bit hard to be honest.

Back on the ranch we have moved our son back to his old school.  We also found out that he has been accepted to the primary school we wantedhim to go to so we will be saving a bit f money on school fees next year. He will also be able to do cricket, swimming, judo tennis and hockey - he will be a very happy boy!!

On the job front the whole 'closer to home but less money' thing didnt work out. Im working on the business my brother and I started doing a lift service for kids in an around the area. 
Im still looking for a job so we will see what happens in the next few months!!

Its the baby girls 5th birthday next week - I.CANT.BELIVE.SHE.IS.FIVE.ALREADY- FREAKING OUT!!!!

Its 15 weeks till the end of the year - I cant wait for 2012 to end - this year has just been to hard!

The Clothes on their backs

A month ago last friday at about quarter to four I received a message from m uband to call him 'urgently'. Now if u know Liam like I do - that was the socking part - seriously .. so when I called him back he very calmly told me told m ht my mothers house was burning down and that they had lost everything.

So yes the saying "only the clothes on their back" has a whole new meaning.  

What a shock to literally whach someones life burn up in flames!! I can't really explain what it feels like or how on earth my mom has managed to deal with it all but she has in her typical calm way  

Yet another new beggining??

So its 6.21 in the morning...i didnt sleep very well or at all really last night. I have a second interview this morning as a temp receptionist at the local hospital.
I dont know how i feel about this 'career change' but i know that I cant keep working for the people im working for now, its just such a mess. How do I keep getting myself into these sorts of situations I have no idea..on the other hand although the reception Job is MUCH less money than what i have sort of been used to its almost exactly what I have been putting out into the world and praying for...
1.  No Cold Calling
2.  Working for a big Corporate (the hospital is part of one of the two big Hospital groups in SA)
      (although Ill be subcontracting through an agency - which is a good thing sometimes too)
3.  Close to home - it takes about 15 minutes to drive there - although iv never tried it in peak hours
4.  Needs to work with the fact that Angel Man leaves for work at 6 and I would have no one to help me with the kids if I also had to start work or leave for work early - today is just for the interview that I need to be there so early...

So I guess if i get the job today I m getting exactly what I asked for although I cant help but feel like I am going backwards - again!!
I was a receptionist in my very very first real job!!

i am super grateful for the opportunity I know that the work market totally sucks at the moment and any salary more than minimum wage is better than no salary at all which is what I am getting now.

I also realised that being up this early even though I didnt sleep, it felt good to get dressed up and I know the ride out there is going to be great - there is nothing better than driving around at a time when everyone else is sleeping or only just getting up.

If anyone read this now - send love light prayers or whatever you send that this is the path that God wants me to be on - that is my only request that it be his will and not mine.

Thanks for all the support everyone its very much appreciated.

Lost

I am feeling a little lost at the moment - not completly unusual for me but i am seriously at a loss at to what to do next. One month ago I was told that the company i had been working was not going to renew my contract, two weeks later a friend asked me to join her in getting people to come to her networking event, we dont have enought people for Thursdays event and so it was decided today that we are postponing the event to July which in a nutshell i will not be getting a salary this month. This is an extreme problem!!! Obviously....
My clutch also finally gave in on Saturday morning so my car does not really drive very well, and I should not drive it anyway.
I still need to pay for angel boys therapy session which is over R1000 but i have not yet thinking i was going to make some money this month.
In other words its a serious problem
When I was told the contract was not going to be renewed I was depressed becouse its the first time ever that I have been let go from anywere - it sucks to not be good enough!!
And now I have no choice but to find another job and I need to get a job starting 1 July - practically unheard of!
Please put your prayers out there for me - thats all I ask I know all things happen for a reason but I dont want to be the reason on the we lose anything like the last time we almost lost everything.

June 2012

After five weeks of headaches and pain I finally went to the doctor. He has told me I need to go to physio therapy and given me a script for an anti depressant.

As many of you who have been reading here for a while will know that I suffer from temparel lobe epilepsy and depression.

To be honest I had no idea I was feeling depressed. With that said I have been crying non stop for the last three years and the pain, irritation and anger I have been feeling for several months - its possible that this makes sense.

I have taken the pills - pain killers etc so I am really really sleepy - fiiiinally, now I just have to hope the sicky/non sleeper children dont wake me up to night!!

Moving on - and freezing up

So its Monday, and I am sitting on my bed writting this listening to some of my favourite songs. My house is pretty cold  but I dont want to put the heater on... Our cat Clio is keeping me company.

So I have found a new job. Or rather I think it found me...its another friend, and before you can say - but wasnt your last job with a friend as well. Yes it was and yes this is problematic even more so as there is no actual contract involved. I am going to help my friend who has been running a eventing company to run a division of this business for her. I will be soley in charge of the Networking event they have once a month. So I have to find the venues, speakers and do all the negotiations as well as find people to go to these events.

I have been helping her with the actual event once a month - packing gift bags, setting up the registration and running that during the event while doing some networking of my own for my company. (Were I was working)

So now the strange part about this all is that three/four years ago when I was helping AM (Angel Man) with his business - we came up with a concept of a ladies leadership group. The group would meet once a month and if they joined the group full on they got space on the website and preferential rates from each other stuff like that - we were also looking at starting a magazine of some sort or something like that.

So my friends concept is pretty much the same only she is dealing with SME's mostly. The events have been marginally successful. We need to up the numbers a lot though in order to be successful and obviously pay our salaries...

I am excited - I believe in the concept and I know that networking is a good way to do business.  We need to diversify and possibly offer workshops and other concept events...

Probelem is not a lot of people can actually network though - so I think maybe I should suggest a workshop on 'how to network'  ?? Not sure if this will work...


I also get to work from home which will be helpful with AB (Angel Boy) and life in general in many ways - if I can figure out how to manage it all and keep it all together.

So I am excited, scared but excited and hoping that this all works out and I can pull finger and actually make something work instead of failing misserably!!!
So here is hoping...

May 2012

Sorry for the dull title...but i have lost not only my sense of direction but my sense of humour as well.
So my contract has been cancelled and I was given one months notice - we are one week into that four weeks... I am looking for more working wondering what the hell happened to me and my plans for the future. Its been hard. Iv never been let go - Im always the one making the decision to move along before someone else can say they dont want me.
On the plus side my sons school phoned me on friday and told me they will allow my son to attend the hockey practice with the big kids... at the primary school. This is fantastic news!!
He will be practicing at school four days a week (seems excessive but hey he is super excited about it)

It has brought on an entire weekend of anxiety for me as I have no idea how he is exactly going to get from the pre school to the primary school grounds and back after the practice. he has never had to take care of his own stuff - hockey stick, shin pads, jersey and hat (its freezing out there today) and I am stressing about how he will manage to change out of his uniform and keep all his things together with no one to take car of him.....oi vey!!!! Freaking out!!!

In other news - but related to the work hunt, a friend has offered me a job with her start up company. She does business networking events once a month.  These are really fun and always interesting. Her business partner however recently left the company with all the contacts and so I am stressing that this is not going to do as well as she thinks and I have no idea how to make it happen faster or better or anything like that so I am afraid to take the leap into what would essentially be my own business in a way.

It is something to think about - its not like the jobs I have applied for are beating down my door to hire me so I am not 100% sure its not a good idea - all I can say is watch this space!!